Supranormal Paul

14th February 2012

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Confession - Life & Love

Gotten home 20 minutes ago and had to write this tonight. Every time I think of you I have to smile, catch my breath, and a storms wrath in my soul when I think of you. My heart is set on fire and you are everything I need, you`re beautiful and you are burning right through me, a message in my heart you are sending signals too.

Today I sent flowers and chocolates and they arrived at a girl who is highly special to me. I sent a message to her, that I like her. I was nervous, and I have let broken hearts haunt me, however I waited. It came 6pm and they arrived and I was scared, nervous, and a whole host of worries. I did the hard part and they were sent, I was not going to let fear keep me back on the things I really need to do in my life. I did it.

Now before I begin explaining I have to say the last 2 days have been amazing, I have meant new people and I have been told so much, I have motivated, inspired and made people smile. I am what I am and Colin a personal trainer said this

“Paul you take training to a whole new level, not just physically or mentally, but spiritually. I can see you sitting down and living with an Indian chief,or a zen Buddhist temple talking” - Colin (Person Trainer REPs - C.

Then I talked to a friend Steven and he is a christian he told me some deep stuff and I told him mine and we realized coming from deep scarring backgrounds that the bible was the only thing that helped.

Next, was two others Leo & Dominic I told them my life story, my struggles and motivation behind it and they were taken back saying “wise mcginley” and all that. - I thank you two.

Then today I sat in starbucks today by myself filling out a Valentines card for my best friend it was a joke “To my boyfriend from your boy friend” - We have a bromance. However, I talked to a new person I never met before and we got into deep talk about life to God it was amazing and he replied this:

“You are so young and wise, there is a power in you that you do not realize you have, you are living life” - Daniel 

I feel great.

Back to it, She loved the flowers and I waited patiently - I say loosely - for a text and she replied loving it thinking it was a prank but I assured it was not. Then I told her “I am not going to lie I like you and I would rather tell you how I feel in person” - I am meeting her tomorrow I am nervous but her heart is strong, innocent and she will be the medicine to my heart. - She is beautiful and I feel like a child around her, wild and free - The way it should be. I

All I need is her, every sinner has future and I will keep that in my mind and every Angel has a past. I will let God in my life with this relationship. I believe in you, I believe in her, I cannot give her up or will not a broken heart stop me. I did the hardest bit and now tomorrow I am meeting her and she is someone I need not want. She will connect me back to being whole and it feels like I am dreaming when I am with her as I feel too alive that it seems not real - But it is. I cannot believe how my life has picked up - I will do a post on all it soon but tonight is me writing up the events of today.

I believe in you so much! You are all I need, burning and consuming through me. She is the only star in the night sky I see, it is so bright and that thought lasts with me. I cannot believe me a sinner but also believer; that I could ever meet or know someone this lovely.

Thank you, Thank you for giving me the strength to love again and someone that can mend this heart. I am going to meet her tomorrow and I am scared, terrified and nervous. However I will not settle for fear because it is the cheapest room in the house and I expect everyone to live in better conditions. 

I want to spend my life in love in everything and friends, but now with someone, share every moment, memory, and experience with her. I want to live it a kiss at a time. Her eyes are gateways to her soul and I see purity and I have known her for years but we both have thought long and hard and we still cannot remember how we first met. I love this and looks like at the end I am ending up happy like a happy ever after story. - Every night since we have gotten closer, you are healing, mending and fixing me.

Giving me power, making me smile and motivating me. Oh you make my pain and past bearable, you show me how to feel loved again. It is what I crave and you know I have been breaking but you have been there in so many ways that you have picked me up - I gave you my heart and not just a piece but all and you have nourished and sheltered it. You have the love beating again and that part is you. It functioning and that is all because of you. You have a place that only you can go.

I have been a christian for 3-4 months and my path or road has been along one and the bible I will not lie has helped me in ways I cannot explain. I am still on this path or road and journeying it. I am giving faith a try, a real “fair” try and it is helping and I do not care what anyone else says.

You are my first light and second chance. I have looked for a sign for so long and it was affront of me faith in myself. I feel limitless and a being of endless potential. Love is priceless power and I once was blind but now I can see. I love you so much and this girl I close my eyes grip my hands and bring them to my head and whisper repeatedly thank you, thank you, thank you. Some how this light deep inside of me is shining strong and Anna (real name) I thank God I know you and you are beside me and Anna one more thing you are perfect for me. In this whole wide world you are really true not first appearance then sinister but truly special. I thank god everyday. 

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