Supranormal Paul

26th February 2012

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Life

Waking up to a beautiful day today. It felt great, a week where I can reflect and go this week has been great. I got the train and talked to a fellow chum who also attended the SIA course I was doing, lovely talk with him. I then walked down the Street and what I heard was quite extraordinary. I could hear music being sung from churches and it made me smile, the sound was beautiful as people are together as one worshiping and celebrating. 

I entered church I was early, however maybe that what had to happen as I met a William, a lovely fellow who I have only had the pleasure of social network as a social way of meeting. I met him and what a lovely fellow indeed. - Splendid.

I entered with my dear friend Gemma, waving to people and talking. We sat down and saved a few seats for others and then I saw my lovely friend Jenny who text me last night in great distress and I had to write back what was in my heart and soul. I never text a message so fast but with so much care to her. I am glad I made her happy as she and everyone else deserves to be happy. I then hugged Shannon another lovely girl with a fragile heart.

Church began and we stood to sing praise. It was lovely and every time I attend church now I love it every time I go. I have noticed my entire being starts to go numb or shivers right my entire being. I love it when everyone is singing as one, in total contemplation. I feel like I am with family and I admit I am getting closer to God, I tell everyone I am just journeying and I am I still do not know what I believe but I stand for his cause… To be happy, to speak for those who have no voice, to fight for what is right, and against the wrong doing. I cannot go a day without thinking have I fully helped someone. I want everyone to be happy and when I see this church in worship, everyone is happy and this intensification you feel and they feel is quite profound. It keeps me thinking if they can believe this strong there is something out there! 

I love it and singing it made me smile uncontrollably. I love it so much. I Everyone is wild and free. - I live a life wild and free. I do not fear - fear. I am a fear hunter, a life changer, a breath taker and there is a fire that burns inside me that consumes my entire being which screams out ” I AM WHO I AM, I AM WORTHY, I AM PAUL MCGINLEY! I AM A WARRIOR! I AM LOVER AND WHEN FIGHT FOR WHAT I LIVE IN” - Even writing this is sends shivers through me. 

It seems there is more authority in these words that dwell in soul and heart than I thought. Could this be God, the holy spirit or what people see in me. I am starting to question a lot of things about myself and faith… People say “Paul it is so obvious you believe, you just won`t admit it, it is in your actions” - My actions is just to be happy and to make others happy, but I have always wondered where does this FEARLESS-NESS comes from? - It can be just my iron will or passion for life as people do wonder why I am so strong and happy all the time? 

I always say my life I did everything myself, achieved what I could and worked for everything and just be a good friend. Conquered my struggles and all that. However, maybe I have never walked alone, not once maybe he was always there. Sometimes maybe unanswered prayers is sometimes the best things possible as God would not give us something we could not handle, this faith I still have for God even in my darkest moments I always come back, maybe there is more than i think. I think I have a weird relationship with him it is “Okay God I kinda believe in you, I am pretty sufficient in my life and find it hard to believe in you, and I do not care what people believe however i do care when one faith bullies another or non-faith people too or vice versa.” 

When the sermon or talk was being told, I had a mental image or sign or whatever you want to call it of an angel coming down behind me and touching me on the shoulder  (I did shiver) and equipping me with a shield and sword. I do not know why I thought this but I could feel an outward feeling - Just saying what happened debate with your own thoughts. I felt I am being called for war. War to defend the weak, to fight for what is right, to fight for love and to make people happy. In one of the songs it says an army is rising, and even in the dark we see a light rising no matter how small. So I  suppose I am a light and a solution and not part of the problem (Mediocrity) - Love will hold us together. At this point my heart was pumping vastly and I think it was reminding me to do everything with love. 

I have a very analytic science mind and now me talking like this is just crazy. I even have a goal starting Monday to next week to just pray for a random-er in the streets. I am want to go up and only to those I feel I should do it to and go excuse me I had a feeling to pray for you can I just do that I am a christian journeying and I have never done this before but please can I pray for you?

Crazy i know…

I feel my life changing, I see myself in a good light and that is all corners of my face and soul, nothing is hidden all is lit. I have wonderful friends I really do and I feel part of the group again, the way it use to be I feel worthy. I mean I feel at ease, like in the flow again. I can`t be stopped because my friends are my foundations, there hearts make up my heart and now this faith… or God… or whatever you call it is there too. I prayed in church today confessing everything. I gave him my everything. I went nothing hidden from him, because when I did I want missing I was lost but then found again. I told him everything and about my lovely girlfriend I want his blessing, his presence, his power - but not to abuse this power.

I want to be an instrument, part of his army, a warrior with a good cause and fight for love and do everything with love and love myself… I feel lost but I will not abuse this power I feel, I have a title and worth I AM A WARRIOR! - A WARRIOR OF GOD! - How can I be defeated if I have angels have friends, an iron will, a grace and presence with so much authority in my voice and eyes - piercing like a wolfs fangs and voice that is louder than any roar and yet elegant as the whisper. These gifts I thought are my own but now I see it may be the lord himself his law, his authority inside of me - giving me this happy and passion to love life. Each step I take I am being found. I turn around and look at my past it is inches from me but it cannot hurt me as I have a light in me so profound that not evening the darkest of shadows can invade. Is this faith or God, or my own power. I do not know! 

I feel like today I was called to church for a reason to receive my title and something I have been longing for, for so long and that is something will protect my heart and bear a seal on it that no force can invade and that is faith. How great is this. My girlfriend I am terrified off as it is not her it is my broken hearts that haunt me but her face and smile melts them away, and I hear drums inside of me… These drums are building me up. I feel that I can so anything through him. He is the greatest authority ever maybe God or maybe my heart - whatever it is I am journeying.

I have always seen myself as bit of a dark horse, I have a past that I do not like - just like everyone else. I have learned that God or going through the greatest struggles creates the greatest peoples on earth. We were made to be courageous! WE WERE MEANT TO LEAD! WE WERE MEANT TO BE WARRIORS! - I CALL ALL CHRISTIANS AND NON-CHRISTIANS if you just want to live a happier life, join the cause of turning the tide of life. We are deserve to be happy. I want us all to stand a believer or not! Let us reunite passions - IT ALL STARTS WITH US TONIGHT! - We must combine together a minority group who believes in love and not settle for second best. Refuse to let others fall! - Watchers, readers who read this become warriors release this warrior inside you. I ask you to start this week and be happy and make others happy. 

Every angel has a past and every sinner has a future. Even the greatest saints has made the greatest mistakes. In the bible and this is funny for me saying this but true God called on the whore, the murder, and to nail in home sinners. We are all sinners. all lost and want a light. - Just like me. 

My scars is what makes me strong and gives me an ever wondering heart. I stand and raise my hands and shout I REFUSE TO LIVE NOTHING BUT THE BEST IN MY LIFE AND REFUSE TO BE AFRAID!!!! - We all all the walking wounded, we pick ourselves up and we fight. We only give up when we say we do. I believe in you. We must change! 

Guess what everyone all my struggles and past, my pains, my scars, my broken hearts and problems I would throw myself back in them and the reason why for this is easy I survived it the first time and I can sure in hell do it through and through. My name is Paul McGinley - Life survivor and a warrior of love and life - Journeying a road of faith.  

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